Memorial Day VLOGG

Here is today's VLOG
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rk-inaT08bE&feature=BFa&list=ULPP_i-terMlI&index=2

Vlogging until I get put back on my regular meds

For some reason, the anxiety meds that the hospital prescribed for me, don't allow my brain to function properly, this is not a joke.  So, until my meds  get switched, here are my thoughts in video form.  Keep in mind, my thought are funnier read then spoken

Hospital stay.

As may people may know, I can in to Presbertatrian on May 23, and I was supposed to have let by wednesday.  Well, I am still here!  The surgeron needed to open my patch opening because it was a litlle bit to small.  My opening was 2ccs, hardly able to get water down.  I normal post-op surgery in 10cc-15cc.  Yesterday he made mine 8cc, and so far, I have been about to keep all of my little ice chips down.  I havent been able to type, So Mark helped me make some vlogs.  So that is all for today, check out the beofre pics, and vlogs, and hopefully I will be back to regular blogging shortly.

regular pics

Pre-Op Waiting Area

I am in surgery, family is waiting

Mark is in charge of all outgoing intell

Jayson being the ham that he is

Out of recovery

Out of recovery and all I wanted to do was walk.  Dr. V's strict orders of walk and sip, walk and sip

I didn't even make it out the room.....

End of 1st day shenanigans.

Starting out pics. There are pictures I tool the night before starting the liquid diet.

10 down and 3 to go!

Today I went to my pre-op visit with the anesthesiologist and all went well.  There were challenges to get there, like not being able to find a sub, leaving later than expected, getting lost, but I made it.  When I was there they weighed me and I am FINALLY down 10lbs!  I was super excited to finally make it to the big 1-0.  Even though losing 10lbs was amazing, I think the best part of my day was leaving school.  When I was walking out, my students all tackled me with hugs.  It felt so nice to see how many of them care about me, I am truly going to miss them while I am gone.

On a happier note, only 3 days to go!  I kind of feel a little unprepared, even though I have been to 5 different classes,  and a support group.  For example, today I had to ask my Mom what pureed food is, I though I had to turn everything into soup.  Glad I asked because that was not the case.  I also need to think about what to take to the hospital with me.  I guess tomorrow can be a hospital shopping day.  I am still confused on how I am supposed to get 80g of protein a day if I can't eat a lot.  I guess as the questions and problems arise, I will use my supports, like Dr. V's office, Obesityhelp.com, my support group, and of course my Mommy.

I suppose that is all for right now.  Hopefully I will remember to post on Sunday night with my last minute thoughts.  Thank you to everyone for all the love you have shown me!

Jackie's Fabulous Weight Loss Goals

Many people have been asking me, "What made you want the surgery"?  To me the answer is obvious, I don't want to be fat anymore, DUH!  But, so I don't sound vain, I tell them about health problems and what not.  I have started thinking of all of the real reasons I want surgery, so I figured I would share them with you.

Now, I know this is a first, 2 entries in a week, but I am procrastinating doing my geometry homework, and this was a good reason to put it on hold.

Without further delay:
JACKIE'S FABULOUS WEIGHT LOSS GOALS
1. Get pregnant, I want a baby already!
2. Ride Harry Potter's Forbidden Journey
3. Wear a dress without having to wear spanx
4. Shop in a non-plus size store
5. Not always be the biggest one when I go out with a group of friends
6. For my scale to not say OL (overload) when I step on it
7. My students to call me a Bitch, as opposed to a Fat Bitch or Fat Ass Bitch
8. Wear jeans without having a muffin top
9. Go to the mall with out trying to start a fight because some douche is talking about me
10. Have another wedding with Mark, or at least take pictures in a skinny bride dress, without a double chin
11. NO MORE DOUBLE CHIN!  I want to punch Sam from high school in the face for always making fun of it.  BTW, she looks like a damn monkey
12. Look good at my 10 year high school reunion.  I can't believe it will be next year!
13. My Grandma's ring to fit me again
14. Be under 200 pounds
15. Actually be able to say I am bloated due to my period, not just bloated because I am always bloated
16. Be able to walk up a flight of stairs without wheezing
17. Walk in my classroom without my ass hitting the desks
18. Fit in my own seat in an airplane.  Thanks for always sharing yours with me Mark!
19. Be able to cross my legs without having to pull my leg up
20. Not be slapped in the face by my arm fat

I am sure I will come up with more to add to this list in the future, so keep your eyes out for updates.  Thanks to everyone for all of their support!

Liquid Diet Lameness

For the past 2 weeks, I have been checking off items on my food bucket list.  I ate all the food that I love, because after surgery, I may not ever be able to eat them again.  I went to my favorite restaurants in Orlando and around here, and made an amazing lasagna for Mother's Day.  With all the food out of the way, I was ready to start my liquid diet on Monday.  

Well, Monday came around, and by 11am, I was ready to chew my arm off.   According to the surgeon, when you have surgery, you need to be on a 2 week liquid diet to shrink the size of your liver.  Since my liver is already enlarged, I understand the purpose.  But, only being able to eat 1000 calories a day is NUTS!  I understand that once I have the surgery, I will be eating under 1000 calories a day, but I still have a very large stomach, so I feel this should be more.  

On Monday, I drank a chocolate EAS protein shake for breakfast (it was pretty good), a strawberry protein shake (DISGUSTING!) and tomato soup for lunch, and bean and bacon soup (pureed and diluted) for dinner.  I was starving, but luckily the support group meeting was Monday night, so me and Mark went there where I begged for liquid diet support.  The support group was great, and so was Mark.  We both learned a lot, and I walked away knowing it gets better.

When Tuesday came around, I felt a little better, had only a chocolate shake for lunch, and added another shake for dinner.  Mark also made me lift weights while sitting on the couch (something he learned from the support group), and bought me a bunch of snacks that people recommended.

Today I went to my What to Expect in Surgery class with my Mom, and learned some more interesting things.  Since we were out during "lunch" time and had no access to our usual shakes, we were STARVING!  I mean, we were about to pass out, it was really bad.  We were in Target, and we went to Starbucks, who has a smoothie with dark cocoa, soy milk, protein and fiber powder, and a banana.  It was so good, and I am so excited that they offer a protein rich drink.  Thank you Starbucks!

Now for the bad.  Since I have been starving myself for the past two days, I figured I should have lost a substantial amount of weight.  I have not cheated at all, and I have been tempted so many times but have resisted.  I knew my Mom has lost 6lbs from her liquid diet over the past 2 days, so I felt as though mine should be the same. Well, I got on the scale, and I have only lost 2lbs.  I know you are thinking "Two pounds is good too", but when you are going through the day light headed and hungry, it's not enough.  I was devastated by my results.  I am literally starving myself,  I am eating a third of what I typically eat, and I only lost 2 damn pounds?!?!!  I am still mad about it.  Once I saw my dismal results, I was ready to eat something, pizza sounds amazing.  But, I didn't and I am still trucking on.  I am sitting here light headed because I am hungry, but the pizza in the freezer is still sitting there, because I know it's what I am supposed to do.  Tomorrow is another day, and hopefully I will see some results soon.